it's been awhile

so it's been awhile since i've blogged. i wish that i had some crazy exciting adventure to tell you about. i like how i say you as if anyone actually reads this. i have no earthly clue as to who actually reads this blog, but i'm okay with that. well for the past month i've been living life. i'm trying to find a job, but i'm came to the realization that it is out of my control. i guess the biggest battle that i'm fighting right now involves the issue of control. i had a hard time sometimes to just let things happen as they should. i don't know if that makes sense, but i guess just go with it. i've been to 3 different interviews and now i'm just waiting. the more i wait the more i feel as if it was a bad date. i think that's what job hunting is like, it's like dating. you get all dressed up and look super cute. you try to think of how you're going to introduce yourself and what you're going to say, when the truth is you're just going to stumble over your words. then there is the waiting period where you think "did they like me?" "why aren't they calling me back?" blah blah blah. i'm so over it! i just hate all these interviewers playing hard to get. i know that they are just players, making you believe that you are the only one they are interested in when they have the cougars waiting in line behind you. i see how it is! i'm not going to take it anymore. i'm not the playing type. i know what i want, i just wish they wanted me back. oh well, someday!!!