it's been awhile

so it's been awhile since i've blogged. i wish that i had some crazy exciting adventure to tell you about. i like how i say you as if anyone actually reads this. i have no earthly clue as to who actually reads this blog, but i'm okay with that. well for the past month i've been living life. i'm trying to find a job, but i'm came to the realization that it is out of my control. i guess the biggest battle that i'm fighting right now involves the issue of control. i had a hard time sometimes to just let things happen as they should. i don't know if that makes sense, but i guess just go with it. i've been to 3 different interviews and now i'm just waiting. the more i wait the more i feel as if it was a bad date. i think that's what job hunting is like, it's like dating. you get all dressed up and look super cute. you try to think of how you're going to introduce yourself and what you're going to say, when the truth is you're just going to stumble over your words. then there is the waiting period where you think "did they like me?" "why aren't they calling me back?" blah blah blah. i'm so over it! i just hate all these interviewers playing hard to get. i know that they are just players, making you believe that you are the only one they are interested in when they have the cougars waiting in line behind you. i see how it is! i'm not going to take it anymore. i'm not the playing type. i know what i want, i just wish they wanted me back. oh well, someday!!!

something to think about

http://faithinmemphis.com/2011/05/02/thank-god-for-undeserved-mercies/

we we we so exciting....seriously? why?

so it's 4:30 in the morning and i'm wide awake. i have no earthly clue as to why? maybe it's because i keep having nightmares about that stupid rebecca black song "friday," it's on repeat in my head. i know, sooo unfortunate right?

last night my roommate and i got mexican with our friend, then went to watch the grizzlies game. ahh it was such a heartbreaker! well i had this revelation ...i was driving and we were blaring mumford & sons "awake my soul" (yep, still obsessed). we were clapping and singing at the top of our lungs like our life's depended on it! in this moment i realized just how thankful i was to be at this place in my life.

the place where i'm single, about to graduate, and have no earthly clue as to where my life is going come saturday . it's this place that causes my mind to wake up at 4 in the morning, just to mull things over. i think that times like these are good for a person, they make you realize you're not in control of ANYTHING. as much as we try to plan out our perfect life's, the Lord's plan always is there to trump it. i think that is a comforting thing to know, that the Lord of the universe has you in the exact place He wants you because that place where it's single, dating, married, working, being a mom is glorifying Him the most.

as for me, i'm thankful that...i can live with my best friends, make target runs because we're bored, rent chick-flicks from red box, cry in our driveway, go to chick-fil-a and order a kids meal with ice cream, go on walks to talk about life, and drive around blaring really good music.

Hope in God

Hope in God

awake my soul

i've been in love with mumford & sons since last spring when my father, yes father, introduced them to me. i've been waiting to hear them in concert since that day and that day has finally come! they played last night at music fest and let me tell you, i'm now obsessed!

so music fest is a time in memphis when bands from ever genre play down by the river. it was my first time to experience music fest and probably will be my last. don't get me wrong. i love people and i love music, but when you are being drown by sweaty smelly drunk people you begin to see that the two don't really mix.

so there i was, sandwiched between high schoolers and old people trying to be young, gnats swarming over my head, then they start to play! i have no words to describe the talent of these young men. as they played i forgot i was standing in mud, surrounded by annoying people. they are just so amazing. as i was listening to the band i just couldn't help but think how a person can heard such talent and still fail to believe in God? i just don't think that you can hear such beauty and think that our race just happened by chance? it just blows my mind.